Thursday, September 26, 2013

Edina.

Full of happy families and cute kids walking down France Avenue.
Boys ride down the streets on their bikes
Talking,
Laughing.

Preppy girls, like Laura Jasper, who wear Sperry’s and Ralph Lauren,
Ride into the country club lot in their Beamers and Jeeps.

The man down the street, Mr. Sonny,
I’ve never spoken to.
But still he waves to me as I drive by every morning,
On my way to school.

At D’amico, people in line want to talk,
Ask you what you plans are for college,
Ask where you live,
What you’re interested in.

At Barrio I run into at least five people I know,
All of which want to chat,
And compliment me on how much I’ve grown.

It’s an oasis of happy people and safety,
But that’s not all I see.

The brand new house of the sweet people down the street?
Someone unplugged their drainage system,
Flooding their entire finished basement.

The old, one of a kind Edina Gas Station
With its sign displaying inspiring quotes like
“Believe you can and you’re halfway there!”
Run to the ground by a large gas company.
The sign now reads
“Large drink 59 cents”

The Westerville’s dog always jumps its fence,
Attacking the innocent dogs on the block.
There’s barely a dog that hasn’t gone to the vet for stitches.

George Lagerstrom,
An eight year old boy I babysat for every Sunday,
Dound dead in his bed not yet a month ago,
Found to have had a bad heart.

The oasis is a mask for what lies beneath.
All the turmoil and tension,

Hidden by smiling faces and happy waves.

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

The Oppression of High School

My backpack sits on the floor next to my desk.
I should open it,
Pull out all the work I have to do.

Math, Science?
Ancient World?
Where will they take me?
How will they enhance my life?
Will they even at all?

I reach for the zipper,
But I stop.

I don’t want it,
I don’t want any of it.
I don’t want to sit in a classroom
or participate in a graded discussion
or turn in my homework ever again.

I don’t want it now,
I don’t want it later,
I didn’t want it yesterday,
I didn’t want it last year.
I want to scream those words.

Where will the quadratic equation factor into my life,
When I have dreams of being a designer?

How will drawing Lewis structures matter,
While I’m traveling the world?

Why do I need to know the exact duration of the Peloponnesian War,
While I am looking towards the future?

I am confined to stuffy classrooms,
Watching the clock,
Waiting for the bell as the teacher talks at me,
Droning about something that won’t matter in five years time.

I want to escape.

I dream of a Monday morning
Where I am hopping onto a place to San Francisco
Paris
Tokyo
Calcutta
Instead of driving myself to school.

I imagine myself at 1 o’clock in the afternoon,
Reading books to orphans in Tanzania,
Rather than walking to Physics.

But for now I can’t.
For now I wait.
For now I reach for the zipper of my backpack,
Pull out my Calculus textbook,
And open to page 64.


Life as a Rower

Get in the car,
Drive.
I don't even have to think about where to turn,
When to stop at stop signs,
Where to go.

Pull into the parking lot,
Walk down the hill.

My coach yaps out line-ups,
I'm five seat.

"All eight, one foot in!"
The coxswain screeches at us.

Back our blades in the water,
out of the dock,
put in my feet,
get ready.

"Pieces," my coach shouts through her megaphone,
we all groan.

Up and down
Up and down
Back and forth on the lake,
till our hands are torn and our muscles ache.

My hair sticks to my face from the sweat,
But I'm happy with how I've done.

We return to the dock,
spent,
but eager for the results.

All anticipating making the best boat.
This is an average day at practice,
This is my life.

Friday, September 13, 2013

SonnetTo Science

Science! true daughter of Old Time thou art!
   Who alterest all things with thy peering eyes.
Why preyest thou thus upon the poet’s heart,
   Vulture, whose wings are dull realities?
How should he love thee? or how deem thee wise,
   Who wouldst not leave him in his wandering
To seek for treasure in the jewelled skies,
   Albeit he soared with an undaunted wing?
Hast thou not dragged Diana from her car,
   And driven the Hamadryad from the wood
To seek a shelter in some happier star?
   Hast thou not torn the Naiad from her flood,
The Elfin from the green grass, and from me
The summer dream beneath the tamarind tree?


Wednesday, September 11, 2013

The Frustration of Dedication

She walks down the hill to practice
Exhausted.

Not physically
Mentally.

She loves practice.
The people,
The coaches,
The boats,
The water

But she needs a break.
Time where he life isn’t structured,
Time to do what she pleases.

She needs a day knowing she can go home and paint.
She wants to leave school and go read her favorite book.
She needs a weekend morning to sleep in
Like most kids her age do.

But she can’t.
No matter how much she resents it,
It’s her life.
Without, she’d be different.

She wouldn’t know who to call when she was unhappy,
She wouldn’t have the relief of working off her anger
Or the pride in reaching her goals.
Without it, she doesn’t know who she’d be.

The very thing that frustrates her to no end

Drives her.